Episode 8- The end of my world

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 8- The end of my world

Obstacle

From Tooji’s point of view

I was in front of the most gorgeous man in the whole world.

The whole world? I mean the universe... he was.

Oh my God.  I could not explain this with words.

If you have watched a picture of Eric Khaled Saade and you think he is sexy, I have to tell you that he is like one hundred times sexier when you watch him live.

I swear.  I am not exaggerating!

Touraj calm down kid- a voice in my mind that looked like my mom’s told me.

Eric was smiling at me.  Probably he was imagining that I was in shock for a different reason.

I could not say a word.  I was so astonished that for the first minute I must admit that I didn’t notice there was a boy standing in the corner of the room.  He looked impatient.

- Oh, I forgot to introduce you. -said Eric with a big smile on his face realizing that I was looking at Danny

-This is...

- Danny Saucedo- I finished his sentence.

- And this is Tooji, Danny.  He is going to represent Norway at the Eurovision Song Contest this year.

Danny just nodded.  That stupid boy on this ridiculously gay astronaut dress.  I hate him!

- Nice to meet you I say and I shake my hand even if I wished he got out of the room.

He ignored me

- Eric... Can I talk to you?

Eric looked a little bit nervous.  He got closer to Danny and whispered something on his ear.

Danny wink at him and kissed Eric on his forehead before living the room.

Eric laughed.     

When Danny was about to leave the room, he gave me a final look.

I don’t need to be a nuclear scientist to know exactly what this face means “Get away from my man now bitch!”  

Eric smiled with confidence.

- So, Tooji, do you like soda?

- What?

Eric Saade laughed

- I usually offer coffee to my guests but the coffee machine is broken so I thought.... hahaha

- Whatever

- Now, tell me a little bit more about you.

The butterflies started again.

Apparently Eric didn’t notice anything strange and he was enjoying with my presence as I talked a little bit about my life, my job taking care of children and my career projects

- I’ve just watched your performance a couple of times- Eric recognized

- Oh yes, my performance!  We wanted to make something very danceable.  A professional pop song but with also some middle East elements.  I’m from Iran, you know

- Oh really?!

- Yes, I’m the Prince of Persia.

Eric pretended to be shocked with that information

- Oh God! I didn’t know that I was in front of a prince, your majesty- He said before throwing me a pillow he had next to his sit that hit me on my chest

- And you are the prince of pop

We both laughed.  

- I have the whole choreography on my laptop, do you want to watch it?

- I have a better idea.  Tomorrow I’ll be rehearsing for my next tour.  I want to see you dancing live.  Do you have time to be there?

- WHAT? Yes

Eric Saade laughed and we shook hands.

- Sorry, I have to go.  I have things to do- he said and when he mentioned this he seems to be worried for the first time.

I didn’t know what was happening in Eric’s life but I wished deep in my heart that one of the things he had to do won’t be “Danny”.

That Obstacle.   

Welcome to my new life

From Eric Saade’s point of view

I wake up at 3 am.

Once again, I had the same nightmare that pursued  me since the last couple of days.  

The only problem is that, this nightmare will never leave me because it was real.  I was living a new life.  Molly has left me and my heart was broken into pieces I couldn’t imagine I could be recovered.  That was the awful truth.

I went to the restroom and I washed my face.  I had to sleep.  I had a busy schedule.  I had to go to Melodifestivalen and I had some interviews.  Also, I knew I had a meeting with a kid from Norway named Tooji who will represent his country in the Eurovision Song Contest.

When I went back to sleep, I tried to remember what I have dreamt.

It was once again about the day Molly told me it was over.  The worst part of it was that I don’t even know why does it happen?

Why me?

What did I do wrong?

Well, I know I haven’t been the best boyfriend these last weeks but it was just because of my work, not that I really want to hurt her.  

I do it for us!

But she has gone...

Why she didn’t told me something was wrong?

Why we couldn’t get a way to fix this problem?

Why our love had to end like this?

Suddenly I felt I was again in my apartment, some days ago

- Eric, I had to go!- Molly said when I hold her hand trying to make her stop

But I didn’t want that she leave the room.  I don’t wanted to face the truth

- Eric, you are hurting me!- Molly cried.

She sink her fingernails on me and I had to released her.

Molly was just in front of the door.  If I let her go, I knew I won’t see her for a while and my life will be destroyed.  I went down on my knees crying rivers, literary.

- But Molly, why do you do this to me?

My voice broke as I felt destroyed as I never felt before in all my life.

Molly Sandén, my ex girlfriend put her hands on her face and she also started to cry.

- Eric, why do you have to make things more difficult than how they are now?

I couldn’t breathe.  However I made an effort to reply

- Don’t tell me that you are making me good just leaving me alone.  Cause I can’t live without you.

- Eric Saade don’t be such a drama queen! I know you can live without me.  You will survive.  I will do it too.  But I can’t be an obstacle to you.

- Come on Eric, you have big plans and I can’t be a part of your dreams anymore.  You want to conquer the world and be a pop prince when I am just here.  We don’t have time to share as a couple.

- Do you want to go on vacations with me?  We can go far away for a month if you want!

- We have gone on vacation just a few weeks.  Don’t you understand Eric? I am not asking you to leave your career for me... It’s me the one that have to do this sacrifice and leave you

- And what about me? I don’t want to leave you.

- I know, cause you are a good boy... but sometimes, when you love someone you have to let him go.  It’s for your own good Eric... and don’t try to stop me!

Then she went straight to the door and she left me. I wanted to make her stop but I couldn’t.  I felt weak.  As I never felt before.  I lied on the floor just watching how my life was destroyed.

I didn’t sleep well that night.

But life had to continue

The phone rang

- Hi

- Eric? Is that you?

It was Danny Saucedo.  My best friend, my lover, my man.

- Are you drinking again?- He asked me after a short pause

- Yes, I admit.  It was just a glass of vodka.

- Isn’t too early to start drinking?

I felt the urge to start crying but I didn’t do it.  Instead I sighed.

- You are right.  I’m a total idiot.

- Eric, are you ok? I’m going to your apartment right now boy.

- No! I mean, it’s 4 in the morning and you have things to do.

- I’m worried about you.

I sighed again.

Why on earth he was so right about me?

- I’ll be alright Danny.  I swear.

- We have to talk Eric,  This is serious.

Normally I was the good boy who took care of Danny.  But now, after Molly left me...

- Don’t do anything stupid.

- I know- I said and then I added.

- I love you Danny

- I love you too my manboy

A tear fell on my check and I went directly to the sofa hoping that this time, I would not have more dreams.

Finally the sun came up again.

I felt like a soldier after a devastating war.  I survived the nightmares once again.  I felt destroyed but I was still alive and ready for anything that was waiting for me.

As I went back to my rehearsing sessions I remember myself not to respond any question about my new relationship situation to be neutral.

This was going to be a hard job.

If they ask me something, I would just say that I haven’t already take on the bad news.  I just didn’t have enough time to face all the consequences and digest all the consequences of this situation.

Oh God, I felt death every time I said that even if was partly truth.  I was not going to talk with the press about how I was dying day after day since I have broken up with Molly!  It was not their business.

I arrived to the Globen Arena.  I had to prepared a big choreography to perform at the closing ceremony of Melodifestivalen 2012 so I didn’t have time to lose.

- Oh Eric!

Someone just call me and without telling something more, the man take my hand and bring me to his dressing room and close the door before he kissed me.

His lips are sweet and soft as sugar and were all I needed to feel relaxed, and calmed, at least for a moment where I’d be in peace and my mind could forget for a moment that I was in hell.

He put his hands on my head and started looking at me more closely.

- You don’t sleep well.  You are not ok.

- I do.  I am ok Danny.  Thanks to you.

I smiled at him but it didn’t work out.

- I know I can be the crappy boyfriend sometimes and that you are better at doing this but you can’t fool me Eric.  You are not ok since you break up with Molly.

- I’m sorry- Danny Saucedo quickly add when he saw that he was causing me pain just  because he mentioned my ex girlfriend's name

- I am going to be ok, Danny.  I swear- I told him but I could not look directly into his eyes.  - Just promise me that you are going to do your best and win Melodifestivalen

- Are you kidding me?  I am going to win this!

- If you win I am going to give you the award and I am going to kiss you in front of the public.  I am not afraid anymore.  I want to tell that I love you to the whole world.

Danny feel nervous after listening my love statement.

- And I’m sure you’re going to be number one at eurovision

- No way! You are better than me

We kissed again.

- What are you doing here?

We both laughed

- I am rehearsing. Duh!  Remember I am going to be at the final.  Besides, I will also have an interview with Tooji

- WHAT? - Danny shouted

- You know, the guy that is representing Norway this year

- I know- Danny replied in a rude tone.

- I don’t like him- He said and he could not hide that he was feeling uncomfortable after I mentioned Tooji

Wait a minute... was he being jealous?

I had to make a big effort not to laugh.  Because if I laugh I knew Danny would be really angry with me and would never forgive me.  But why could he imagine...?

It sounded like a big joke to me.       

I pretended to make it look like a joke but the expression on Danny’s face was cold so I prefer to ignore what he said.  I promised a thousand times that I would not do anything stupid and a thousand kisses later I said goodbye to my lover and I was ready for another day.

***

- Oh, Eric, you are here!

The boy from Norway was walking directly to me.  I must admit that I didn’t recognize him immediately.  I was really tired after more than an hour, working on my performance.

I liked his tan.  His skin and his face.  He is really a hot boy from the Middle East.

That was the first thing that came to my mind.

But his smile... my Gaydar told me that he might be gay or at least bi but he was definitely not straight.

- Hi Tooji, Are you having a nice week in Sweden?

- Oh please! I’m loving it... and I am going to announce the points from my country at the final.

- That’s great!  Molly... my ex girlfriend and Danny my bo... best friend are in the final

For a second I find that Tooji had exactly the same expression I saw on Danny’s face but then he quickly smile again

- Yes I know!  But I am supporting Loreen

- Oh yes, she is great.  Did you know that last year she...?

We went to my room.  Everything was a mess but Tooji didn’t care at all.  I turn on my Mac and stared at him

- Ok, show me what you’ve prepared

Tooji laughed nervously.  I noticed he was feeling a little bit shy.

- I am not a professional dancer as you are so I created the whole choreography and...

I put a hand on his shoulder  

- I am sure it’s great, just calm down and shoot.

Then I knew that it was the worst idea to do that.  I felt butterflies on my stomach, a feeling that I have only experience with an only boy.  Until now.

However it was not exactly the same.  Something inside of me told me that it was wrong.  So good but so wrong at the same time.

The problem was that, the more I looked at Tooji things were getting a little bit worst... I felt excited, completely excited just with that little touch.

There was something between my legs that it was getting bigger while Tooji was making that, almost erotic dance in front of me

I hear the music as I walk down the street

Start moving to the rhythm, heart is pumping the beat

I hear the people shout out; Turn up the music louder

Better start running if you can't stand the heat

The heat, the heat... the place was getting suddenly hotter.

My penis was fully erected.  

Eric: don’t look directly to him.  Don’t be so evident.  Look at the floor- My consciousness said.

But then I noticed the way he seductively move his hips.  It makes him look like a girl for sure but at the same time it was so damn sexy that...

Was he trying to seduce me to take advantage of me? Cause he was doing really good.

Come on Eric Saade, put your feet on the ground.  Think about

Molly!

That was actually the key.  I just need to think about her to feel the pain.

In less than a blink of an eye the music fades out

- I know I suck at this- Tooji cried with frustration.

- What? Oh no!

- But I just saw the expression on your face

- No, no, no you are great it’s just that...

-What’s wrong?

I couldn’t look on his face anymore.  My face was looking at the ground.

- Nothing... Well I can’t tell you

- Eric, even if I don’t understand what is happening to you, I hope things will be fixed and that you can smile again- the boy told me and without waiting for my response I was covered in his arms.  

I would never imagine that he could hug so hard but so sweet at the same time

- Thanks Danny

That was probably the worst thing I could told him but I didn’t mean it.

It was not really my fault.  It was my brain who played me these tricks.

Suddenly Tooji got away from me

- You must be tired

- I guess you’re right.  

But then I added before leaving the door.

- I am sorry you have to see me this way Tooji.  I am just a disaster.  Everything in me is a disaster these days and I can’t do things right.

- Do you mind if I take a walk with you before you leave to your house? I will invite you a drink.

- I guess- I said even if I wasn’t sure about it.

I closed my eyes and I just walked.  Over the next few minutes I didn’t think.  I let the boy that looked so protective and wiser than me lead me whenever he wanted and when I could see clear I find out that I was in a Café.     

Episode 7- The end of my world

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 7- The end of my world

My twin flame

From Tooji’s point of view

When my manager told me that I was about to meet Eric Saade (the real winner of the Eurovision Song Contest 2011 in my opinion) I get so excited that I jump and run like crazy through the whole room.

He was the boy of my dreams since the moment I first saw him on tv.  

It was actually funny to remember someday when I was watching tv at home.  Eric Saade was performing Popular at Melodifestivalen.  He was completely gorgeous and I could not take out my eyes out of him.

- Touraj, what’s your girlfriend’s name again?

It was my mom.  I told her, one of my best friends was my “girlfriend”

- Valerie- I said while a voice in my mind felt guilty for telling that lie to my mom while I was in love of the guy that was singing on tv.

But I had no option.  My mom thinks gay people will go to hell just because the way we are.

My mom smiled in that very romantic way that makes her look so special

- She is a nice girl my prince.  I wish she values such an special gift she found when you fall in love with her

My mom kissed on my cheek before leaving.

I sighed and then I continue watching Eric in complete ecstasy.

That night I remembered I looked for him on the internet.  The first video I found about Eric Saade was actually taken one year ago.  He was doing Melodifestivalen for his very first time.  And he was singing “manboy”.

I swear I lose my breath when the boy danced in the rain at the end of the video.  I had to rewind it over and over again.  That was so hot.  I wished I could be one of these drops of water to walk through the entire body of Eric Saade from his fair, his forehead, nose, his beautiful pink lips to his chest, his...

I was feeling horny.

Then I asked myself a question: Could he be gay?

No! He couldn’t be.  He is just.... to perfect to be gay.  Or maybe.  I was not sure if he was gay or if I really want to make him gay.  

With my heart in my hand I Google “Eric Saade gay” and after I press enter I found some forums and then “Eric Saade & Danny Saucedo (Kyss)”

Who the hell is that Danny Saucedo? He is ugly and stupid.

Wow, some people say he looks like Tom Felton.  That’s false!

How dare him touch Eric’s beautiful, pure lips.

It’s not fair.  I should be on his place!

However, even if I feel a little bit angry I couldn’t stop watching that video.  And let’s admit it, I feel a little bit excited when I saw this boy doing exactly what I wanted to do to Eric Saade.  

On the following days I tried to collect a lot of material about Eric: every single picture, every song.  I wanted all and I actually created a minifolder that was hidden in my laptop for the couple made by Eric Saade and Danny Saucedo.  People call them Deric, actually.

I mean, if that was what he really wanted- I thought.

***

- Tooji, I didn’t imagine you would be so happy for meeting Eric! I thought it was quite the opposite- my manager explained.

- You know there’s a rivalry between your fans and Eric’s fans.

I laughed about it

- I love that man!- I replied almost crying.

- When will we meet him?

- Wait a minute Tooji, I’m actually talking to Tomas Lingman (he is the manager of Eric Saade) and he’ll put you in contact with Eric.  

My manager looked at me.  I couldn’t hide my expectation

- Probably in a few days.  Eric agree to see you.  Isn’t it great? And he could give you some advices for your performance and we’ll go to Sweden.

Great?  It was more than perfect.

I WILL MEET ERIC SAADE! I love this guy.

- Thanks!!! I said and I kissed my manager on his cheek.  He looked at me with that face he dedicated me whenever he thinks I was going crazy.

Everything went so fast then.  I went from my office to the gym and from the gym to the studio to prepare my dance routines and one day I was making my bags to go to Sweden and be at the Melodifestivalen.  

The finals were about to begin.  It takes just one week until the finals would take place.  People’s favorites were Loreen (she was just fabulous)... and Danny.

As part of the promotions of the Norwegian entry, me, I would announce the votes from my country in the Melodifestivalen final night.  At the same time I’d have the chance to meet Eric and ask for his advice.

We flight to Sweden and went to the hotel room that night.  The next day, a car was waiting for me to take me to Globen where Eric Saade was having a meeting press of something like that.  If I was lucky I would meet the contestants of this year.

The first person I noticed from the group of contestants was actually Danny.  That blond bastard that was fucking my Eric wearing that ridiculous astronaut dress!

I laughed

And then I see Loreen, she was cool and Eric Saade’s girlfriend, Molly Sandén who participated this year with a sad ballad.  I didn’t know why she chose that.

There was no sign of Eric Saade.

Wait.

I couldn’t see him because a crowd of journalist was all around him making him questions and taking thousand of pictures of him.  Eric felt a little bit stressed and tired while he talked to them.  When I see his eyes for the first time, I noticed that he needed to sleep.

We had to wait for about ten minutes until the moment my manager finally could address ti Eric.

- Oh Eric! I’m glad to see you.  We had an appointment today.  By the way, this is Tooji, Norway’s representative for this year’s Eurovision song contest.

My heart almost explode when he said that but Eric still was so busy he doesn’t look directly to my eyes.

When he said my name, some journalists also started taking pictures of me as if they suddenly find me interesting

- Hi Tooji!

- This is for ESCtoday, do you like Eric Saade?

- Hi Tooji, would you like to take a picture with me?

- What do you expect of this year’s Eurovision?

- Do you think you can win?

- Will you ask some advices to Eric?

So many questions I could not pay attention to any of them

- Tooji?- Eric Saade questioned

And then he recognized me.

- Oh hi!- He said as if we was really happy to see me.

I knew he was overreacting but I appreciate that he wanted to make me feel comfortable as if I he was really interested to come and see me.

I couldn’t help myself and I hug him.

Think something good Tooji.  Come on!

But my mind was completely empty.  My brain was frozen and I had butterflies in my stomach.  Finally I got it.

- You know people say I look like you- I started

People looked at each other.  Maybe thinking that I was about to say something stupid.

Eric just looked at me a little bit confused before he slowly agreed

- Hmm ha I guess

- They try to make me angry with that but they don’t know that it makes me happy instead.

- Really?

- I’m happy to finally meet my twin flame.  I want to be like you Eric Saade.

Eric wink in response and he went back to the dressing room.

My manager thumb up approving my move.

- Come on, Tooji, let’s move on.

We follow Eric to his room, getting away from the noisy crowd of people out there.

This week is going to be awesome.

Episode 6- Doctor me (part V)

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 6- Doctor me (part V)

This is heaven

Some days after I had my first  sex experience with Danny...

I must admit, I still can’t believe this has happen for real.  It’s incredible to just imagine that I have made love with Danny Saucedo.

I have never met a man like him before and probably will never find someone like him.  He is very protective and this makes me angry but he is so wise and special for me.  

My master, my teacher.

Well, some days after that, I received a surprise coming from him that I was not expecting and I didn’t know if I should feel comfortable or just offended.   

When I arrived home to my parent’s they preached me for hours about how irresponsible I was and for the next week I could not leave home after school.

Of course I lied.  I tell them I went to the movies and then I went out with my friends to see a match from the Champions League.

I really missed Danny but at the same time I didn’t want to see him and the idea of him, trying to call me makes me feel nervous.

All I could do was masturbating me in the shower thinking about my blond Adonis, my saviour and protector.  Just remembering how my body was touched immediately made me feel excited and turned me on.

We have taken too many risks over the past days that I didn’t want to take more and probably hurt Danny’s reputation or made him lose his job.

It was not until my first day, when my punishment was finished and I could finally go out that I knew something new about Dr. Danny Saucedo.

I had to go to some friends house to complete some school assignments and maybe watch a film when I realize that I haven’t read my email some days ago.  I had the temptation to check if there was something new so I went to an Internet shop before taking the bus.

I almost fainted when I see an email from danny.saucedo@yahoo.se.  I tried to calm down and stop breathing so fast before clicking that letter.

Finally I did:

Mi amor:

You don’t even know how much I’ve been missing you.  How many times I’ve been thinking about leaving everything just to run for you.  But I can’t for your own sake.  There are so many things to lose if we make something stupid and I don’t want to hurt you, not even lose you.

I guess you think the same because you haven’t try to look for me on the next days.  You are a wise boy.  I hope I have not caused you any trouble with your parents.

I have a plan for us baby.  I would die if I pass another week without you baby.  Tell me where and when can we meet each other.

Yours

Danny

I hesitated for a second but then I click on Reply

“Can’t wait to see you.  I want to be with you today.  Pick me up at 16.00 I’ll be in the park next to Emma’s house.”

I looked behind me and rolled my eyes before adding “I love you”

I arrived to Emma’s house and do my tasks as fast as a I can’t.  We play video games at first and I guess my friends noticed there was something wrong in me when I just don’t stop telling them that we had to start doing our homework right now to end it all really fast.

This was probably the first time they watch me talking about how important was to do our homework right at the time.

- Are you sick manboy?- Someone told me.

Thanks God we do things right.  When I noticed it was almost four and we haven’t finished preparing our report, I told the boys that I have an important thing to do and that I would finish my part of the job at home.

Emma said that she wanted to go with me so I won’t be alone as I wait for my taxi.  I say it was not necessary but she insisted  and it would be suspicious if I refuse her polite gesture

- So you end up with your girlfriend?

We were walking straight to the part when she suddenly asked this

- How did you know that?

She looked at me, maybe thinking that I was trying to take her for a fool

- We are friends Eric.  There’s no secret between us.

Now it was me who was surprised

- So she told you that she has cheated on me twice?- I questioned her

Emma wasn’t expecting that reply.

- This could not be truth

- Yes, I confirmed.  I know exactly what I’ve seen

I felt uncomfortable but I was feeling better now.  When I first realized what happened it hurt me a lot, but then... I felt no emotion.  It was like talking about another person, not me.

- Are you ok, Eric?- My friend asked me

- Yes I said even if I could not smile.

- I’m sorry for being so rude- I added.- It’s just that I am not already prepared to talk about this subject.  Ok?

- I guess so- she said but after a few seconds she added- So there’s no chance that you two come back

- I don’t think so

I sighed

- Emma, you have been really nice for caring about how I was feeling and everything but I have to go right now.  Someone is waiting for me.

I kissed her in the cheek and I started walking through the park, praying that Danny won’t be late.  

He arrived 5 minutes later and I entered the car.  Thanks heaven!

I kissed Danny on his mouth after I closed the door.

- Hi, Danny- I said and then I sit and adjusted my seat belt.

- Are you feeling ok, Eric?  You haven’t said a single word- Danny said five minutes later.

- I had a discussion with a friend about my ex girlfriend.- I admitted.

- Oh- He just said.

Maybe he noticed that it was not a good idea to insist on that subject or simply he was shocked because I haven’t told him already that I broke up with my girl but he doesn’t ask me anything more.

Finally we arrived to Danny’s house.  When we entered his apartment he let me go to his room while he prepared his “special gift”.  I run directly to the bed and turn on the tv as a 5 years old little boy who doesn’t care for anything more.

Ten minutes later, Danny was there with me.  I noticed he was hesitating about what he was about to do because of that guilty smile he was giving to me.

- Are we going to watch a porn film?- I suggested laughing.  I have lots of them in my house.

Danny looked at me a little bit upset but a little bit fun at the same time

I knew exactly what he was thinking: That Eric Saade is playing with me once again.  He thinks he is so bad! And he was right about it hahaha  

I guess Danny took my challenge and he put a film .  We watched a straight porn film.  Probably because, Danny imagined that would turn me on better than a gay film.  And he was right.  I have never watched one of them. After the porno we stripped down and he had me lay face down on the bed. I felt him pull my legs apart and then he did something he never does and started to lick my asshole.

- No- I asked and Danny stopped

He looked at me feeling guilty for what he thought it was an abuse.  

I was feeling like a total idiot.

- No, go on Danny- I cried.

I took on his hands

- I’m sorry I just want to feel the magic but at the same time I feel so unprepared.

- Then we better stop- Danny says with a disappointed tone on his voice.

I had to do something.  Danny has his own pride and he’d rather end what we were doing if he felt he was hurting me.

- No, Danny.  You should know how complicated I am but if there’s someone who must do this, that’s you- I beg

- But not today...- Danny started as he think he was about to do something morally wrong.

I have no choice.  I don’t let him continue.  I kissed him with passion.  The discussion was over.  

Danny get closer to me.  He continue once again and all I could do was just lay there and moan and squirm as he ate me and tongue fucked me. After several minute of him eating my man cunt he than pulled away and I felt him pour a bit of lube on my open waiting asshole and than started to push it in with his finger.

I felt pleasure, pain and pleasure once again.

I tried to feel relaxed and it works.  I was feeling fine as I never imagined I could be, in bed with a man.  But of course, I never met someone like  Danny before.

He would finger it for a few strokes pull it out and pour on a bit more lube and finger it into me again and that is when I felt the lube start to heat up and I realized he had used some sort of warming lube which felt so good and drove me wild.

I suddenly became aware that he was starting to use 2 fingers in my buttocks and he would wiggle them around to really intensify the action. When my virgin butt got used to 2 fingers in it he pushed in a third and started to massage me. As he finger fucked me all I could do was surrender to it and Danny knew he had me hooked. After listening to me moan and sigh for several minutes he pulled his fingers out of me. I felt him get into position behind me and in between my legs when I felt what I thought was his cockhead press against my pulsing asshole.

At least that was what I thought.  A few seconds later I would find what my gift was.

As I felt him surge into me I realized it was not his cock as whatever he was using was stretching me to my limit as he pushed it deep into my ass until he got it in deeper than anything I have taken to this point. It was my first time I get fucked that it actually was hurting a bit and I was contemplating putting a stop to it when he leaned over and whispered

-Relax baby you are gonna love this.

He just left the dildo in me not moving it at all when I felt him start to lick my neck and back really exciting me. As he was licking me I found myself grinding against the dildo in me and he used that as his signal to slowly fuck me. At first he would only remove a couple of inches and slowly work it back in until he worked up a rythm that allowed him to long stroke my ass. I was grinding so hard against it my cock was rubbing on the sheets and I had managed to cum.

Danny had reached around to fondle my cock he discovered my secret and he scooped up a bit of it and fed it to me and I as I licked it clean he would reach down and scoop up more. All through the feeding he kept whispering things: do you like it my sweet angel?

After he was done feeding me my cum I felt his hand circle my cock and he was stroking it in time with my assfucking. It took several minutes but I could not hold out any longer and shot another load into his hand.

As things started to wind down he took his cum covered hand and smeared it all over my face. I have to say when he pulled the dildo out of my butt at that point my man cunt felt so hollow and I was amazed when I saw what was in me. He had bought a pink dildo and had buried that all the way into me. I than proceeded to thank him for a good time by giving him a nice steady blowjob and allowing him to paint my face with his cum before letting him fuck me in the ass.

Ten minutes later we laid in his bed, hugging and kissing each other

- So that’s your gift: your first sex toy boy- Danny said with a pervert smile on his face

Oh Gosh, I was underestimating my man’s sex drive and I had to pay for that hahaha

- I can’t bring that... thing to my house.  Are you insane Danny? I’m just 15!

- I thought you were an all grown up kid- he joked

That hurted.  Using my words against me.

However, Danny laughed again.

- You can have it here- He explained.

- By the way, I have another gift for you.  Close your eyes.

I did it and like five seconds later, I feel Danny’s lips next to mine and after that, he put something inside my hand.

A Key?

- I want that you have an extra key of my apartment.  My house is your house baby.  

I couldn’t believe what I have heard.  It was like he was proposing me to get married with me.  It was simply... more than I was expecting.

- No secrets for you Eric- Danny confirmed.

Our hands stayed together for more than a minute, when I finally took the key and then we stared at each other, not knowing what to say.

Sudenly I found out, there was something I just didn’t understand about our relationship.

- Darling, I want to know something and I want that you be honest with me.

Danny kept looking at me but I noticed he was now a little bit nervous

- Just shoot, baby boy.

I sighed.

- Danny, why didn’t you want to be with me... you know, why you didn’t want to have sex with me?- I finally asked as fast as I could to make it sound less worse

Dr. Danny Saucedo just smiled.

- I thought you knew.

He put a hand on my shoulder and looked at me with love.  The only person that has looked at me with the same passion was my mom.

- Because I love you and I want to protect you.  I don’t want to do something that could be bad for you, no matter if you agree or not.

- I know.  But I feel there’s something else- I insisted.- Please Danny, tell me! You promised me you won’t have secrets with me.

Danny looked at the floor.  For a second I though our conversation was finished but then he stared at me and I could see there was a tear on his eye.

- Someone raped me when I was your age

I suddenly felt my world has been destroyed when I listen this.

I wished it was a horrible lie but it wasn’t.  

Danny’s face only showed me pain and sadness as I’ve never seen before.  It was obvious I’ve made him go back to the worst episode of his life every time I mentioned how much I wanted to be in bed with him.

But he was going to overcome this horrible nightmare.  He was a survivor and he had me.  We have a lifetime to forget this pain.

I wished I have something good to tell him but my mind was frozen and I was completely in shock  

- It was a boy from my school- Danny continue to my surprise.  He was 5 years older than me.  I thought he was handsome but I have never talked to him because I was too shy.  I never suspected why he always observed me when I had to go to a class.

One day, I didn’t left the school at the right time because I was playing sports.  I loved swimming at this time.

When I went to the dressing room to put my uniform on and go to my house I heard some noise before the boy closed the door.

I felt afraid but I could not imagine that he was about to beat me and forced me to have sex with him.  And I was all this time in love of that bastard.

Danny was crying and his face reflects both pain and anger

- I never told my parents.  I never tell anyone until now.

- Oh Danny- I cried before hugging him. - Please don’t cry, your safe now.  You are with me and I love you.

- I know I’m safe in your arms Eric

***

I was looking myself in the mirror.

I liked my graduation smoking and my sailor hat.  Soon I would be in school, sharing my last day with my friends at school.

I feel happy and nostalgic at the same time.  I feared this would also be the last time I see my lover after a whole year where he was my only one.

My phone rang.  I’ve received a SMS

My boy is finally a big man.  Congratulations. XOXO.  Danny      

I looked at the window.  It was raining cats and dogs.

I sighed.

- What are you doing here?  It’s time to go.

It was my mom

- Who send you a message on your cell phone.  Is your new girlfriend

- Mum!

- I’m just kidding.

I take the backseat and we went to my school.  I had to wear a bright yellow watercoat.  When I finally arrived, I could see the boys, making jokes, ready for the big celebration.

I took a look but I couldn’t find Danny.  Of course, he should be with the other professors- I thought.

- Hi Eric!

It was my ex girlfriend who suddenly hugged me as she saw me coming next to her.

I couldn’t deny this put me a big smile on my face and with a bottle of wine in my hand and a picture of me in the other I join the reunion waiting for having the biggest party of my whole life.

I took some pictures with my friends and family and I drink a little bit.  I started to forget what made me feel minutes just some minutes ago.. well, at least until the ceremony started and the director of my school started to call our names to give us our diplomas.

Then I remembered the only person that has the power to make me feel calm on these situations.  

Eric Khaleb Saade

I felt butterflies in my stomach when my name was finally pronounced.

Oh God, it was a reality.  This was the end and soon I would be an adult.  My time in school has ended forever.

I felt someone was touching my shoulder to make me react.  I couldn’t hear well what people was telling me but I was not really listening.

I stood up making my best to not cry and finally I started walking.  A photographer was taking pictures of me in the right moment when I walk through the hall and I felt like walking miles and miles until I finally arrived and took my diploma.

It was supposed that I came back and took a seat next to my parents but then I see... him and everything in me could only focus on him.

Waiting from me in a corner.  I was out of the sight of any curious person.  My lips and Danny’s meet each other for a second.

- Congratulations Eric, he said.  I can’t believe you were that little boy who came one day for some professional help.

I laughed.

- I would love to live with you now that I’m an adult.

It was real.  I didn’t care for the rest.

Danny stared at me with an enigmatic smile

- I have some better ideas for us to.  You won’t have to sacrifice anything from your old life to be with me.  And you already live with me... deep in my heart

The end.