Episode 7- The end of my world

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 7- The end of my world

My twin flame

From Tooji’s point of view

When my manager told me that I was about to meet Eric Saade (the real winner of the Eurovision Song Contest 2011 in my opinion) I get so excited that I jump and run like crazy through the whole room.

He was the boy of my dreams since the moment I first saw him on tv.  

It was actually funny to remember someday when I was watching tv at home.  Eric Saade was performing Popular at Melodifestivalen.  He was completely gorgeous and I could not take out my eyes out of him.

- Touraj, what’s your girlfriend’s name again?

It was my mom.  I told her, one of my best friends was my “girlfriend”

- Valerie- I said while a voice in my mind felt guilty for telling that lie to my mom while I was in love of the guy that was singing on tv.

But I had no option.  My mom thinks gay people will go to hell just because the way we are.

My mom smiled in that very romantic way that makes her look so special

- She is a nice girl my prince.  I wish she values such an special gift she found when you fall in love with her

My mom kissed on my cheek before leaving.

I sighed and then I continue watching Eric in complete ecstasy.

That night I remembered I looked for him on the internet.  The first video I found about Eric Saade was actually taken one year ago.  He was doing Melodifestivalen for his very first time.  And he was singing “manboy”.

I swear I lose my breath when the boy danced in the rain at the end of the video.  I had to rewind it over and over again.  That was so hot.  I wished I could be one of these drops of water to walk through the entire body of Eric Saade from his fair, his forehead, nose, his beautiful pink lips to his chest, his...

I was feeling horny.

Then I asked myself a question: Could he be gay?

No! He couldn’t be.  He is just.... to perfect to be gay.  Or maybe.  I was not sure if he was gay or if I really want to make him gay.  

With my heart in my hand I Google “Eric Saade gay” and after I press enter I found some forums and then “Eric Saade & Danny Saucedo (Kyss)”

Who the hell is that Danny Saucedo? He is ugly and stupid.

Wow, some people say he looks like Tom Felton.  That’s false!

How dare him touch Eric’s beautiful, pure lips.

It’s not fair.  I should be on his place!

However, even if I feel a little bit angry I couldn’t stop watching that video.  And let’s admit it, I feel a little bit excited when I saw this boy doing exactly what I wanted to do to Eric Saade.  

On the following days I tried to collect a lot of material about Eric: every single picture, every song.  I wanted all and I actually created a minifolder that was hidden in my laptop for the couple made by Eric Saade and Danny Saucedo.  People call them Deric, actually.

I mean, if that was what he really wanted- I thought.

***

- Tooji, I didn’t imagine you would be so happy for meeting Eric! I thought it was quite the opposite- my manager explained.

- You know there’s a rivalry between your fans and Eric’s fans.

I laughed about it

- I love that man!- I replied almost crying.

- When will we meet him?

- Wait a minute Tooji, I’m actually talking to Tomas Lingman (he is the manager of Eric Saade) and he’ll put you in contact with Eric.  

My manager looked at me.  I couldn’t hide my expectation

- Probably in a few days.  Eric agree to see you.  Isn’t it great? And he could give you some advices for your performance and we’ll go to Sweden.

Great?  It was more than perfect.

I WILL MEET ERIC SAADE! I love this guy.

- Thanks!!! I said and I kissed my manager on his cheek.  He looked at me with that face he dedicated me whenever he thinks I was going crazy.

Everything went so fast then.  I went from my office to the gym and from the gym to the studio to prepare my dance routines and one day I was making my bags to go to Sweden and be at the Melodifestivalen.  

The finals were about to begin.  It takes just one week until the finals would take place.  People’s favorites were Loreen (she was just fabulous)... and Danny.

As part of the promotions of the Norwegian entry, me, I would announce the votes from my country in the Melodifestivalen final night.  At the same time I’d have the chance to meet Eric and ask for his advice.

We flight to Sweden and went to the hotel room that night.  The next day, a car was waiting for me to take me to Globen where Eric Saade was having a meeting press of something like that.  If I was lucky I would meet the contestants of this year.

The first person I noticed from the group of contestants was actually Danny.  That blond bastard that was fucking my Eric wearing that ridiculous astronaut dress!

I laughed

And then I see Loreen, she was cool and Eric Saade’s girlfriend, Molly Sandén who participated this year with a sad ballad.  I didn’t know why she chose that.

There was no sign of Eric Saade.

Wait.

I couldn’t see him because a crowd of journalist was all around him making him questions and taking thousand of pictures of him.  Eric felt a little bit stressed and tired while he talked to them.  When I see his eyes for the first time, I noticed that he needed to sleep.

We had to wait for about ten minutes until the moment my manager finally could address ti Eric.

- Oh Eric! I’m glad to see you.  We had an appointment today.  By the way, this is Tooji, Norway’s representative for this year’s Eurovision song contest.

My heart almost explode when he said that but Eric still was so busy he doesn’t look directly to my eyes.

When he said my name, some journalists also started taking pictures of me as if they suddenly find me interesting

- Hi Tooji!

- This is for ESCtoday, do you like Eric Saade?

- Hi Tooji, would you like to take a picture with me?

- What do you expect of this year’s Eurovision?

- Do you think you can win?

- Will you ask some advices to Eric?

So many questions I could not pay attention to any of them

- Tooji?- Eric Saade questioned

And then he recognized me.

- Oh hi!- He said as if we was really happy to see me.

I knew he was overreacting but I appreciate that he wanted to make me feel comfortable as if I he was really interested to come and see me.

I couldn’t help myself and I hug him.

Think something good Tooji.  Come on!

But my mind was completely empty.  My brain was frozen and I had butterflies in my stomach.  Finally I got it.

- You know people say I look like you- I started

People looked at each other.  Maybe thinking that I was about to say something stupid.

Eric just looked at me a little bit confused before he slowly agreed

- Hmm ha I guess

- They try to make me angry with that but they don’t know that it makes me happy instead.

- Really?

- I’m happy to finally meet my twin flame.  I want to be like you Eric Saade.

Eric wink in response and he went back to the dressing room.

My manager thumb up approving my move.

- Come on, Tooji, let’s move on.

We follow Eric to his room, getting away from the noisy crowd of people out there.

This week is going to be awesome.

Episode 6- Doctor me (part V)

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 6- Doctor me (part V)

This is heaven

Some days after I had my first  sex experience with Danny...

I must admit, I still can’t believe this has happen for real.  It’s incredible to just imagine that I have made love with Danny Saucedo.

I have never met a man like him before and probably will never find someone like him.  He is very protective and this makes me angry but he is so wise and special for me.  

My master, my teacher.

Well, some days after that, I received a surprise coming from him that I was not expecting and I didn’t know if I should feel comfortable or just offended.   

When I arrived home to my parent’s they preached me for hours about how irresponsible I was and for the next week I could not leave home after school.

Of course I lied.  I tell them I went to the movies and then I went out with my friends to see a match from the Champions League.

I really missed Danny but at the same time I didn’t want to see him and the idea of him, trying to call me makes me feel nervous.

All I could do was masturbating me in the shower thinking about my blond Adonis, my saviour and protector.  Just remembering how my body was touched immediately made me feel excited and turned me on.

We have taken too many risks over the past days that I didn’t want to take more and probably hurt Danny’s reputation or made him lose his job.

It was not until my first day, when my punishment was finished and I could finally go out that I knew something new about Dr. Danny Saucedo.

I had to go to some friends house to complete some school assignments and maybe watch a film when I realize that I haven’t read my email some days ago.  I had the temptation to check if there was something new so I went to an Internet shop before taking the bus.

I almost fainted when I see an email from danny.saucedo@yahoo.se.  I tried to calm down and stop breathing so fast before clicking that letter.

Finally I did:

Mi amor:

You don’t even know how much I’ve been missing you.  How many times I’ve been thinking about leaving everything just to run for you.  But I can’t for your own sake.  There are so many things to lose if we make something stupid and I don’t want to hurt you, not even lose you.

I guess you think the same because you haven’t try to look for me on the next days.  You are a wise boy.  I hope I have not caused you any trouble with your parents.

I have a plan for us baby.  I would die if I pass another week without you baby.  Tell me where and when can we meet each other.

Yours

Danny

I hesitated for a second but then I click on Reply

“Can’t wait to see you.  I want to be with you today.  Pick me up at 16.00 I’ll be in the park next to Emma’s house.”

I looked behind me and rolled my eyes before adding “I love you”

I arrived to Emma’s house and do my tasks as fast as a I can’t.  We play video games at first and I guess my friends noticed there was something wrong in me when I just don’t stop telling them that we had to start doing our homework right now to end it all really fast.

This was probably the first time they watch me talking about how important was to do our homework right at the time.

- Are you sick manboy?- Someone told me.

Thanks God we do things right.  When I noticed it was almost four and we haven’t finished preparing our report, I told the boys that I have an important thing to do and that I would finish my part of the job at home.

Emma said that she wanted to go with me so I won’t be alone as I wait for my taxi.  I say it was not necessary but she insisted  and it would be suspicious if I refuse her polite gesture

- So you end up with your girlfriend?

We were walking straight to the part when she suddenly asked this

- How did you know that?

She looked at me, maybe thinking that I was trying to take her for a fool

- We are friends Eric.  There’s no secret between us.

Now it was me who was surprised

- So she told you that she has cheated on me twice?- I questioned her

Emma wasn’t expecting that reply.

- This could not be truth

- Yes, I confirmed.  I know exactly what I’ve seen

I felt uncomfortable but I was feeling better now.  When I first realized what happened it hurt me a lot, but then... I felt no emotion.  It was like talking about another person, not me.

- Are you ok, Eric?- My friend asked me

- Yes I said even if I could not smile.

- I’m sorry for being so rude- I added.- It’s just that I am not already prepared to talk about this subject.  Ok?

- I guess so- she said but after a few seconds she added- So there’s no chance that you two come back

- I don’t think so

I sighed

- Emma, you have been really nice for caring about how I was feeling and everything but I have to go right now.  Someone is waiting for me.

I kissed her in the cheek and I started walking through the park, praying that Danny won’t be late.  

He arrived 5 minutes later and I entered the car.  Thanks heaven!

I kissed Danny on his mouth after I closed the door.

- Hi, Danny- I said and then I sit and adjusted my seat belt.

- Are you feeling ok, Eric?  You haven’t said a single word- Danny said five minutes later.

- I had a discussion with a friend about my ex girlfriend.- I admitted.

- Oh- He just said.

Maybe he noticed that it was not a good idea to insist on that subject or simply he was shocked because I haven’t told him already that I broke up with my girl but he doesn’t ask me anything more.

Finally we arrived to Danny’s house.  When we entered his apartment he let me go to his room while he prepared his “special gift”.  I run directly to the bed and turn on the tv as a 5 years old little boy who doesn’t care for anything more.

Ten minutes later, Danny was there with me.  I noticed he was hesitating about what he was about to do because of that guilty smile he was giving to me.

- Are we going to watch a porn film?- I suggested laughing.  I have lots of them in my house.

Danny looked at me a little bit upset but a little bit fun at the same time

I knew exactly what he was thinking: That Eric Saade is playing with me once again.  He thinks he is so bad! And he was right about it hahaha  

I guess Danny took my challenge and he put a film .  We watched a straight porn film.  Probably because, Danny imagined that would turn me on better than a gay film.  And he was right.  I have never watched one of them. After the porno we stripped down and he had me lay face down on the bed. I felt him pull my legs apart and then he did something he never does and started to lick my asshole.

- No- I asked and Danny stopped

He looked at me feeling guilty for what he thought it was an abuse.  

I was feeling like a total idiot.

- No, go on Danny- I cried.

I took on his hands

- I’m sorry I just want to feel the magic but at the same time I feel so unprepared.

- Then we better stop- Danny says with a disappointed tone on his voice.

I had to do something.  Danny has his own pride and he’d rather end what we were doing if he felt he was hurting me.

- No, Danny.  You should know how complicated I am but if there’s someone who must do this, that’s you- I beg

- But not today...- Danny started as he think he was about to do something morally wrong.

I have no choice.  I don’t let him continue.  I kissed him with passion.  The discussion was over.  

Danny get closer to me.  He continue once again and all I could do was just lay there and moan and squirm as he ate me and tongue fucked me. After several minute of him eating my man cunt he than pulled away and I felt him pour a bit of lube on my open waiting asshole and than started to push it in with his finger.

I felt pleasure, pain and pleasure once again.

I tried to feel relaxed and it works.  I was feeling fine as I never imagined I could be, in bed with a man.  But of course, I never met someone like  Danny before.

He would finger it for a few strokes pull it out and pour on a bit more lube and finger it into me again and that is when I felt the lube start to heat up and I realized he had used some sort of warming lube which felt so good and drove me wild.

I suddenly became aware that he was starting to use 2 fingers in my buttocks and he would wiggle them around to really intensify the action. When my virgin butt got used to 2 fingers in it he pushed in a third and started to massage me. As he finger fucked me all I could do was surrender to it and Danny knew he had me hooked. After listening to me moan and sigh for several minutes he pulled his fingers out of me. I felt him get into position behind me and in between my legs when I felt what I thought was his cockhead press against my pulsing asshole.

At least that was what I thought.  A few seconds later I would find what my gift was.

As I felt him surge into me I realized it was not his cock as whatever he was using was stretching me to my limit as he pushed it deep into my ass until he got it in deeper than anything I have taken to this point. It was my first time I get fucked that it actually was hurting a bit and I was contemplating putting a stop to it when he leaned over and whispered

-Relax baby you are gonna love this.

He just left the dildo in me not moving it at all when I felt him start to lick my neck and back really exciting me. As he was licking me I found myself grinding against the dildo in me and he used that as his signal to slowly fuck me. At first he would only remove a couple of inches and slowly work it back in until he worked up a rythm that allowed him to long stroke my ass. I was grinding so hard against it my cock was rubbing on the sheets and I had managed to cum.

Danny had reached around to fondle my cock he discovered my secret and he scooped up a bit of it and fed it to me and I as I licked it clean he would reach down and scoop up more. All through the feeding he kept whispering things: do you like it my sweet angel?

After he was done feeding me my cum I felt his hand circle my cock and he was stroking it in time with my assfucking. It took several minutes but I could not hold out any longer and shot another load into his hand.

As things started to wind down he took his cum covered hand and smeared it all over my face. I have to say when he pulled the dildo out of my butt at that point my man cunt felt so hollow and I was amazed when I saw what was in me. He had bought a pink dildo and had buried that all the way into me. I than proceeded to thank him for a good time by giving him a nice steady blowjob and allowing him to paint my face with his cum before letting him fuck me in the ass.

Ten minutes later we laid in his bed, hugging and kissing each other

- So that’s your gift: your first sex toy boy- Danny said with a pervert smile on his face

Oh Gosh, I was underestimating my man’s sex drive and I had to pay for that hahaha

- I can’t bring that... thing to my house.  Are you insane Danny? I’m just 15!

- I thought you were an all grown up kid- he joked

That hurted.  Using my words against me.

However, Danny laughed again.

- You can have it here- He explained.

- By the way, I have another gift for you.  Close your eyes.

I did it and like five seconds later, I feel Danny’s lips next to mine and after that, he put something inside my hand.

A Key?

- I want that you have an extra key of my apartment.  My house is your house baby.  

I couldn’t believe what I have heard.  It was like he was proposing me to get married with me.  It was simply... more than I was expecting.

- No secrets for you Eric- Danny confirmed.

Our hands stayed together for more than a minute, when I finally took the key and then we stared at each other, not knowing what to say.

Sudenly I found out, there was something I just didn’t understand about our relationship.

- Darling, I want to know something and I want that you be honest with me.

Danny kept looking at me but I noticed he was now a little bit nervous

- Just shoot, baby boy.

I sighed.

- Danny, why didn’t you want to be with me... you know, why you didn’t want to have sex with me?- I finally asked as fast as I could to make it sound less worse

Dr. Danny Saucedo just smiled.

- I thought you knew.

He put a hand on my shoulder and looked at me with love.  The only person that has looked at me with the same passion was my mom.

- Because I love you and I want to protect you.  I don’t want to do something that could be bad for you, no matter if you agree or not.

- I know.  But I feel there’s something else- I insisted.- Please Danny, tell me! You promised me you won’t have secrets with me.

Danny looked at the floor.  For a second I though our conversation was finished but then he stared at me and I could see there was a tear on his eye.

- Someone raped me when I was your age

I suddenly felt my world has been destroyed when I listen this.

I wished it was a horrible lie but it wasn’t.  

Danny’s face only showed me pain and sadness as I’ve never seen before.  It was obvious I’ve made him go back to the worst episode of his life every time I mentioned how much I wanted to be in bed with him.

But he was going to overcome this horrible nightmare.  He was a survivor and he had me.  We have a lifetime to forget this pain.

I wished I have something good to tell him but my mind was frozen and I was completely in shock  

- It was a boy from my school- Danny continue to my surprise.  He was 5 years older than me.  I thought he was handsome but I have never talked to him because I was too shy.  I never suspected why he always observed me when I had to go to a class.

One day, I didn’t left the school at the right time because I was playing sports.  I loved swimming at this time.

When I went to the dressing room to put my uniform on and go to my house I heard some noise before the boy closed the door.

I felt afraid but I could not imagine that he was about to beat me and forced me to have sex with him.  And I was all this time in love of that bastard.

Danny was crying and his face reflects both pain and anger

- I never told my parents.  I never tell anyone until now.

- Oh Danny- I cried before hugging him. - Please don’t cry, your safe now.  You are with me and I love you.

- I know I’m safe in your arms Eric

***

I was looking myself in the mirror.

I liked my graduation smoking and my sailor hat.  Soon I would be in school, sharing my last day with my friends at school.

I feel happy and nostalgic at the same time.  I feared this would also be the last time I see my lover after a whole year where he was my only one.

My phone rang.  I’ve received a SMS

My boy is finally a big man.  Congratulations. XOXO.  Danny      

I looked at the window.  It was raining cats and dogs.

I sighed.

- What are you doing here?  It’s time to go.

It was my mom

- Who send you a message on your cell phone.  Is your new girlfriend

- Mum!

- I’m just kidding.

I take the backseat and we went to my school.  I had to wear a bright yellow watercoat.  When I finally arrived, I could see the boys, making jokes, ready for the big celebration.

I took a look but I couldn’t find Danny.  Of course, he should be with the other professors- I thought.

- Hi Eric!

It was my ex girlfriend who suddenly hugged me as she saw me coming next to her.

I couldn’t deny this put me a big smile on my face and with a bottle of wine in my hand and a picture of me in the other I join the reunion waiting for having the biggest party of my whole life.

I took some pictures with my friends and family and I drink a little bit.  I started to forget what made me feel minutes just some minutes ago.. well, at least until the ceremony started and the director of my school started to call our names to give us our diplomas.

Then I remembered the only person that has the power to make me feel calm on these situations.  

Eric Khaleb Saade

I felt butterflies in my stomach when my name was finally pronounced.

Oh God, it was a reality.  This was the end and soon I would be an adult.  My time in school has ended forever.

I felt someone was touching my shoulder to make me react.  I couldn’t hear well what people was telling me but I was not really listening.

I stood up making my best to not cry and finally I started walking.  A photographer was taking pictures of me in the right moment when I walk through the hall and I felt like walking miles and miles until I finally arrived and took my diploma.

It was supposed that I came back and took a seat next to my parents but then I see... him and everything in me could only focus on him.

Waiting from me in a corner.  I was out of the sight of any curious person.  My lips and Danny’s meet each other for a second.

- Congratulations Eric, he said.  I can’t believe you were that little boy who came one day for some professional help.

I laughed.

- I would love to live with you now that I’m an adult.

It was real.  I didn’t care for the rest.

Danny stared at me with an enigmatic smile

- I have some better ideas for us to.  You won’t have to sacrifice anything from your old life to be with me.  And you already live with me... deep in my heart

The end.

      

         

Episode 5- Doctor me (part IV)

"IGNSTSMF" (I Got No Switch to Stop My Fantasies)

A collection of my favourite sweet Deric fantasies, written by Kikisan.

Please, do not repost it in any place without asking permission and crediting me & this blog, thank you!  This fic creates a series of fantasies were Danny and Eric will be the main actors.  Every episode described on this fic is 100% fictional and has no base on reality.  A fantasy is an imagined event such a daydream.  It’s not real and in some cases, the re-enactment of such events are ilegal and immoral at the same time so please keep in mind this and have fun.  Thanks to all of my readers

Episode 5- Doctor me (part IV)

Journal from Doctor Danny Saucedo

Days passed away.  But they were different.

With the touch of this magical love, I became a new man.  I knew it wasn’t completely right and that people would judge me if they knew what was happening but I couldn’t deny the reality.  I was a new man, a happier one, thanks to the love of that kid, of that manboy.

And I was nervous but living the best days of my life thanks to Eric.  I must say that my secretary actually noticed my change of mood after I meet that boy.  Now she sees me with a big smile in my face re decorating the office or even telling jokes to the cleaning lady.

- Doctor Saucedo, Eric is here to see you- she announced

- Let her in.

A few seconds after I closed the door I was kissing him, feeling the touch of his lips, his virginal tongue trying to exploring me while I devore him with my eyes as I keep tasting his uncredibly delicious taste.

- I was missing you, boy You’re late! Trying to kill me mi amor?

- I couldn’t skip last class, Danny- Eric admitted. I hate these math, I couldn’t wait until we leave!

But he was here.  

Now he was visiting me almost everyday after the classes finished.  Even if we don’t talk as a couple would do, that was actually what was happening with us.

I was experimenting the beauty of love once again in my life.

Eric stared at me.  Maybe deciding if he should get mad with me.  He detested that I talked to him in Spanish, my mother’s tongue.

- Are you ready to play with me? He asked before biting his lower lip.  - I’ve got a fantastic video game and I want that you proof it- he added before putting his hands on his pants.

I bite my own lip before I could answer to our code

- Oh really? I hope this would be better than our last game we play because that was awesome.  Next time I’ll show you my own collection.

Eric then hugged me and he left the room.

I could see how his beautiful hips move as he walk to the main door of the school.  He looked like an angel and I didn’t want to damage him.

I drink a cup of coffee and then I went directly to my car with a feeling of butterflies in my stomach.

It was stupid.  It was reckless.  It was dangerous for my own security and for the boy’s integrity.  But I did it anyway.  I guess I am a bad person after all, even if I want to be good.  

Five blocks later, Eric was right there, sat waiting for me.  It was obvious that he was experimenting a rush of anxiety because he just couldn’t stop playing with his hands.

I stopped right in front of him.  It took less than two seconds for him to enter my car.

- Are you comfortable, baby?

He just laughed.

- How are you doing in school? How about your friends and your girlfriend?- I asked him with a smile in my face trying to trivialize this subject.

The boy frowned and the funny think was that he looked cute even when he was feeling angry with me.

There was a cold silence between us as we move on.  I don’t like that expression on his face.  He still was feeling upset for any reason

- What do you want to do?

- It’s you who decides- he replied

So it was my fault?  He think that I wanted to have everything too in control.

I understood.

- Eric

He stared at me with surprise because I don’t use to cal him by his name.

- I’m sorry, man.  I know I care too much about things that I could be like a pain in...

The boy didn’t let me continue my speech.  He goes for me and he kissed me.  Two seconds later we were hugging and kissing each other in the middle of the highway.

- We have to continue or the police will notice we’re in the middle of the road and you’ll be in trouble- Eric joked.

- You are right babe.

We went all the way to my house, Eric knew so well after having visited it so many times in the past few weeks.  When I opened the door he immediately went straight to the big sofa and he waited for me lying there, like the most provocative, seductive but at the same time, innocent and beauty work of art.

He started at me and I knew what he wanted that I do to him.  He wanted to have my body and let’s face it... I wanted that too!

I took the boy from behind, put my body against him feeling that I was melting with him into a one man in a slow dancing.  Eric looked at me and we kissed once again, this time slower.

His breathing was accelerated and he took my arms to his chest and then he begun to unzip his shirt with such an anxiety that he wasn’t even able to unbotton his shirt.

I was burning inside.  I was sweating and I could hear the beat of my heart that was about to explode craving to make love to that boy.

To make love to that boy.

Boy

Eric was just a little boy

-STOP- I shouted.

Eric Saade looked at me with shame, surprise and shock in his eyes.  He didn’t understand what was hapenning.  Obviously he didn’t know how I was feeling.

Like a sick wolf trying to eat an innocent sheep.

- What’s wrong with you Danny?- He yelled at me, putting his arms into my shoulders and pressing them harder than necessary

I knew he wanted to shook my body.  Thanks God I’m bigger than him.

- I can’t do what you have in mind, boy.

- Why?- He questioned me and now he looked angrier than before.

- Because it’s wrong.

- Fuck!

For Eric that was probably one of the stupidest excuse I could use for him

- Because I don’t want to hurt you

- For your information I’m not a virgin! This is just the first time I’ve been with a boy and I though you could be the best person to make it special but if you think I’m not good enough or...

The boy stopped his menace.  He could not see directly to my eyes because he was now covered by tears.

I was very stupid.  How could I move on with this without knowing things could end like this?

I get close to him and I try to kiss him.  Our lips touch themselves but then Eric, move back.

- No!  Now you are hurting me.

Now it was time for me to cry.

- Eric, could you believe me when I say that you are the most precious, the most important person I have ever had that I just don’t want to hurt you?  I will never forgive myself if something went wrong and it’s all my fault.

Eric snorted

- I am not a kid.  

- I know

- Sometimes I think you forget about it too often

- Eric, if only you knew- I started but I was interrupted by Eric’s sigh

- Yes, if only I knew... But you don’t make an effort to try to explain it.  Is it so complicated? Or do you think I’m too silly to understand?- Eric replied to me with a soft tone but at the same time making me know that I can’t underestimate him.

He is a really smart boy.

- It’s not like that, boy- I replied but I guessed he discovered my hesitating tone.

- Then what?- He challenged me

- You have to trust in me.  I’ve promised you that we are going to make it and that’s what we are going to do.  

Eric sighed.  He obviously didn’t believe in my words.

- But we have to do it my way.  Let’s go to my bedroom- I added.

Eric looked at me completely skeptical at my apparently sudden change of reaction but he just obey.  When we arrived to my room, I went to the bathroom and I clean my face trying to win a few seconds of time.

I took Eric’s face in my hand and I put my own one in front of his angelical view: my eyes in front of his warm eyes, my nose in front of his nose, my lips touching his lips.

I felt his slowly breathing and his touch... I can’t describe with words how the touch of his skin could have such an impact in my whole body.  We were just one person during this little moment.

I unbottoned Eric’s shirt discovering his chest, his pink nipples, the delicate touch of his male hair that was starting to grow, his little navel, everything was perfect

- We are going to have a deeper massage today- I suggested and then I kid his fronthead, his cheast, his lips, his neck.

I put my lips in one of his nipples and I rose it with my wet tongue

- Aww, Eric moaned and I could not ignore him.

I nervously looked at his eyes.

- I’m ok- he confirmed half irritated, half enjoying that I cared too much for him.

Then I kiss once, two, three times to his stomach before putting my fingers to the border of his pants.

I hesitate just a little second before I unzipped his pants and then I was taking his pants off to reveal that he was wearing some sexy white boxers that highlight his tremendous, massive cock that was completely erected.  It was so glorious, I could not ignore the urge that came to me.

I wanted to put that dick in my mouth.

And so do I.  I kiss him on his undies feeling the warm on his penis.

- Is it mine?

- Yes, I’m yours- Eric answered after he moaned once again.

Slowly, I took off that last piece of clothes revealing the final unexplored part on my boys body to my eyes that could not stop devouring that white, soft as a baby, delicate sexual zone.

That was more than I could stand.  Slowly I put my body all over him and I started kissing Eric once again.  Kissing and hugging him as if he was my newborn baby so delicate, nude and unprotected.  He just get born to his new life, to another part of him he didn’t know so well.

I slowly went to his private parts, took a deep breath and then I lick his baby maker.  I swallow it like a lollipop and a few seconds later I start coming up and down, masturbating him with my mouth and taking as much as I could

- Oh, yes Danny.  I’m loving it-  Eric say with passion, begging up for more

I could not say anything because I was too busy playing with that yummy cock from a guy I have never dream I could ever have.

But now it was mine and I wanted to do things in the right way.

I stopped at the right time and I lick Eric as a hungry man would do with a dish after eating the most delicious manjar in the whole planet.  I taste my boy with my tongue from his testicles walking through his penis, the cover of skin that was hiding his dick then to his stomach, his nipples until I reach his mouth and I French kiss him.

I doubted for a second but then I tried to touch my little boy’s buttocks.  I slowly tried to enter him with my middle finger but he immediately reacted closing his legs as feeling an electrical shock.

I kissed him on his right ear before whispering

- It’s ok boy.  It’s not the time.

I sighed.

-You are so handsome

Eric closed his eyes in ecstasy.  I put my hand into his big dick and I start manhanding him until his cum arrives like rivers of semen up to his stomach, one into another and one of the last drops went to his chest.  

I admire such a warm milky juice I had in my hands and I put my fingers in my mouth, as a ceremony that was about to end.  With respect because it was more than sex.

Then I went straight to the bathroom and I touched myself until I cum.  It took me like ten minutes.  For some reason I feel it was immoral to cum in front of the boy.

When I came back, Eric Saade was sleeping like a baby in my bed.  I sit right next to him and let him take a nap for about ten minutes while I just played with his hair.

At this moment, everything seemed to be so simple and clear.  

I felt God gave me a mission to and it was to take care of my angel.  That was what I doing.

I entertained myself playing with my fingers.  Touching his beautiful hair and soon I also fell sleep next to him.

- Gosh! LOOK WHAT TIME IT IS

Eric and me were hugging each other.  

Eric opened his eyes with a sweet smile upon his face and I knew he was having a beautiful dream but a few seconds later he realized that it was 6pm, his parents would kill him.

He take his clothes on in a few seconds and five minutes later I was driving in my car to bring him home.

- So... are you sure you want to continue with this?- Eric asked me a little bit nervous.- I know I am not your age, that I sometimes act like a spoiled kid, that I get angry if I don’t get my way but I love you.

My heart started beating really fast when I heard this and for a second, I had to remember that I was driving.  I didn’t want that we have an accident.

I sighed

- Eric, I decided to take this risk and I keep my promise.  I’ll be here with you as long as you want that things still this way.  Ok?

Eric didn’t have to respond to my question.  He just smiled the way he only can do this and that was enough  for me.

We kiss for the last time this day and I came back to my home, sure that in my future there was a paradise just for me and Eric and that we would live together more brighter days together.